Constant Bombardment
Lately Satan has taken advantage of my lack of defense and is constantly bombarding me with different things. "You're not good enough, pretty enough, you aren't beautiful enough for boys to like you, you're too goody goody, blah blah" and as much as I want to say that it doesn't effect me -- to an extent, it does! He takes these words and twists them into me like screws. So the more he works at it, the deeper they go. Everything I have a break through with God, Satan attacks me more and more. When I don't get much out of devos, or it's shorter because I'm too tired to concentrate, Satan doesn't hurt me as much. But even when I'm being ripped apart -- I find my strength in God. He is my solace. (Phillipians 4:13) So I haven't been the happiest girl lately. Lots of fetal position sitting in my room, thinking about stuff, and being upset while driving. No more taylor swift sing alongs in my car, just loud dance music that lets me drown out my thought for a few blissful moments.
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