True Love? I'm a believer.
I don't take lies from the ultimate deciever.
He tries to smash my every desire;
tries to persuade me to throw them into the fire.
No, even Lucifer can't stop a love like this.
Once it's found, there's no way to resist.
The ultimate sacrifice He made.
The price for my soul -- He paid.
He's the perfect lover.
Of my love story, He's the author.
{In Progress}
Love.
When I am.
When I am.
When I'm down, He picks me up.
When I'm empty, He fills my cup.
When I'm weary, He makes me strong.
When I'm alone, He makes me belong.
When I'm upset, He holds me in his arms.
When I'm hurt, He protects me from all harms.
When I'm sorry, He forgives my greatest debt.
When I'm worried, He helps me to not fret.
When I'm happy, He rejoices.
When I can't speak, He gives me a voice.
When I feel worthless, He reassures my doubts.
When I'm angry, He scolds my pouts.
{In Progress}
When I'm empty, He fills my cup.
When I'm weary, He makes me strong.
When I'm alone, He makes me belong.
When I'm upset, He holds me in his arms.
When I'm hurt, He protects me from all harms.
When I'm sorry, He forgives my greatest debt.
When I'm worried, He helps me to not fret.
When I'm happy, He rejoices.
When I can't speak, He gives me a voice.
When I feel worthless, He reassures my doubts.
When I'm angry, He scolds my pouts.
{In Progress}
Love & The Pursuit of Happiness
Love & The Pursuit of Happiness
This quote is taken from the book When God Writes Your Love Story by Eric & Leslie Ludy on page 253.
"Our Love Hungry generation is desperately searching for the "beautiful side of love." But it is not found in either having sex or abstaining from sex. The "sweeter song" is Jesus, in all His fullness, all His love, all His beauty, all His grace, and all His majesty."
"Our Love Hungry generation is desperately searching for the "beautiful side of love." But it is not found in either having sex or abstaining from sex. The "sweeter song" is Jesus, in all His fullness, all His love, all His beauty, all His grace, and all His majesty."
Mega-Blog!
Mega-Blog!
So this blog is going to be my only blog from now on. It's just all my old stuff thrown into one so it's sorta mixed up! I'll try to put published dates on them sooner or later, but you can probably tell my old stuff from my new :) Have a fabulous day and thanks for reading! :)
~Aunica
2 Corinthians 12:9-10
~Aunica
2 Corinthians 12:9-10
Sticks & Stones (Tough Stuff Series)
Sticks & Stones (Tough Stuff Series)
Her Peaceful oblivion
she tries to hide underneath her skin
she doesn't let anybody in
no friends will she win
she cries herself to sleep at night
just wants a boy to hold her tight
she doesn't know what is wrong or right
No one told her not to look into the light
She doesn't know she needs saving
doesn't understand why she's misbehaving
doesn't know the source of the love she's craving
into herself she is caving
She just wants to feel needed
wants her words to be heeded
her soul needs to be feeded
doesn't know about the blood that he bleeded
she tries to appear like she doesn't care
hides behind the veil of her hair
all the right clothes she tries to wear
she feels like life is so unfair
she doesn't feel anything but okay
she feels less wanted each and every day
she'd never ever think to pray
her whole life is in dissarray
sticks and stones may break her bones
and words will always hurt her
she doesn't know the love she lacks
because no one told her about her maker
on that fateful day that she drew her last breath
her own life she took, not knowing about her Savior.
she tries to hide underneath her skin
she doesn't let anybody in
no friends will she win
she cries herself to sleep at night
just wants a boy to hold her tight
she doesn't know what is wrong or right
No one told her not to look into the light
She doesn't know she needs saving
doesn't understand why she's misbehaving
doesn't know the source of the love she's craving
into herself she is caving
She just wants to feel needed
wants her words to be heeded
her soul needs to be feeded
doesn't know about the blood that he bleeded
she tries to appear like she doesn't care
hides behind the veil of her hair
all the right clothes she tries to wear
she feels like life is so unfair
she doesn't feel anything but okay
she feels less wanted each and every day
she'd never ever think to pray
her whole life is in dissarray
sticks and stones may break her bones
and words will always hurt her
she doesn't know the love she lacks
because no one told her about her maker
on that fateful day that she drew her last breath
her own life she took, not knowing about her Savior.
Anor-what? (Tough Stuff Series)
Anor-what? (Tough Stuff Series)
So very skinny you want to be
so you don't eat very healthily
some lettuce & water is all you need
words of wisdom you don't heed
to look like a model in the magazine
you need to be a size negative eighteen
starvation is the only way
watching your own body start to decay
your bones you now can see
you only think of outer beauty
eating at a friends you do delay
than later on you throw it all away
hardly a bite to eat
your disorder harder & harder to defeat
others wish to be like you
they don't see your fingers turning blue
"you look good, my dear"
they don't see your inner fear
this deadly cycle you are in
all you consist of now is skin
you don't know how to get out
all you want to do is scream & shout
by the time you realized your mistake
your own life you did take
for all the beauty you thought to gain
you should have gone and used your brain.
Anorexia.
so you don't eat very healthily
some lettuce & water is all you need
words of wisdom you don't heed
to look like a model in the magazine
you need to be a size negative eighteen
starvation is the only way
watching your own body start to decay
your bones you now can see
you only think of outer beauty
eating at a friends you do delay
than later on you throw it all away
hardly a bite to eat
your disorder harder & harder to defeat
others wish to be like you
they don't see your fingers turning blue
"you look good, my dear"
they don't see your inner fear
this deadly cycle you are in
all you consist of now is skin
you don't know how to get out
all you want to do is scream & shout
by the time you realized your mistake
your own life you did take
for all the beauty you thought to gain
you should have gone and used your brain.
Anorexia.
Mission:Abort (Tough Stuff Series)
Mission:Abort (Tough Stuff Series)
Takes one to know one
the Beauty of life you shun
your background i don't know
every moment it continues to grow
soon enough you're going to show
every breakable you want to throw
How'd you get into this mess
every sin you must confess
your trust is being put to the test
you gotta give it a rest
all you wanted was some love
every doctor you want to shove
you've got your undies in a wad
he wouldn't touch you with a 10-foot rod
you'll live the concequences of this mistake
in premarital intercourse you did partake
marriage wasn't in the deal
you just wanted a way to heal
he went running the other way
to you, no attention he did pay
you wallow in your anguish & pain
crying through the sunshine and the rain
you look around for someone to blame
to your mind no answer came
you have a life changing choice
to give this little one a voice
life or death, that is your quest
a child's life you could put to rest
the life-size mistake you've made
your personal life they will invade
you're options:live or die
too many tears you will cry
murder is the word
so many stories left unheard
lives taken without a fight
never a chance to get it right
so many breaths never breathed
so many dreams never achieved
will your child add to the number?
Or will they eternally slumber?
will they get a chance at life?
or be left dead in their strife?
Murder has a new name
it had to be done, you will claim.
Abortion.
the Beauty of life you shun
your background i don't know
every moment it continues to grow
soon enough you're going to show
every breakable you want to throw
How'd you get into this mess
every sin you must confess
your trust is being put to the test
you gotta give it a rest
all you wanted was some love
every doctor you want to shove
you've got your undies in a wad
he wouldn't touch you with a 10-foot rod
you'll live the concequences of this mistake
in premarital intercourse you did partake
marriage wasn't in the deal
you just wanted a way to heal
he went running the other way
to you, no attention he did pay
you wallow in your anguish & pain
crying through the sunshine and the rain
you look around for someone to blame
to your mind no answer came
you have a life changing choice
to give this little one a voice
life or death, that is your quest
a child's life you could put to rest
the life-size mistake you've made
your personal life they will invade
you're options:live or die
too many tears you will cry
murder is the word
so many stories left unheard
lives taken without a fight
never a chance to get it right
so many breaths never breathed
so many dreams never achieved
will your child add to the number?
Or will they eternally slumber?
will they get a chance at life?
or be left dead in their strife?
Murder has a new name
it had to be done, you will claim.
Abortion.
Adam & Steve (Tough Stuff Series)
Adam & Steve (Tough Stuff Series)
God created Adam & Eve
never a thought about Adam & Steve
it's not how we're created
sinful lust unsatiated
no children can you make
so why the need to partake
you fill your heart with greed
more sin you feel you need
my words please do take heed
in the bible, wrong it was decreed
in certain states, legal it was made
heterosexual you should have stayed
to honor God in all we do
Away from Him you flew.
Gay Marriage.
never a thought about Adam & Steve
it's not how we're created
sinful lust unsatiated
no children can you make
so why the need to partake
you fill your heart with greed
more sin you feel you need
my words please do take heed
in the bible, wrong it was decreed
in certain states, legal it was made
heterosexual you should have stayed
to honor God in all we do
Away from Him you flew.
Gay Marriage.
Insecurity
Insecurity
Insecurity
why do you want a piece of me?
Why don't you go mess with somebody who will show,
the anguish you cause.
I'm sick of your lies,
sad attempts to pry,
into my heart and my soul.
For i have a hope from above,
i've found a greater love,
in Him i find my strength to carry on.
Into Him i will pour,
all i'm looking for.
In him i find all i need and more.
He is the only way,
so tonight i pray,
for strength to push on through.
He shines a light so bright,
he illuminates the night,
the birds sing of his might and his grace.
His mercies anew,
shine right on through,
my every hope and dream he renews.
He is my sole need and desire.
He wants me when i feel unwanted.
He loves me when i don't feel love.
He picks me up when i fall.
He. Is. My. Savior. 1 Peter 5:8-9
Proverbs 31:30
Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
why do you want a piece of me?
Why don't you go mess with somebody who will show,
the anguish you cause.
I'm sick of your lies,
sad attempts to pry,
into my heart and my soul.
For i have a hope from above,
i've found a greater love,
in Him i find my strength to carry on.
Into Him i will pour,
all i'm looking for.
In him i find all i need and more.
He is the only way,
so tonight i pray,
for strength to push on through.
He shines a light so bright,
he illuminates the night,
the birds sing of his might and his grace.
His mercies anew,
shine right on through,
my every hope and dream he renews.
He is my sole need and desire.
He wants me when i feel unwanted.
He loves me when i don't feel love.
He picks me up when i fall.
He. Is. My. Savior. 1 Peter 5:8-9
Proverbs 31:30
Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
The Maze of Life
The Maze of Life
We played a game in sunday school today where one girl would be blindfolded and the other would have to give them directions to get them through the maze.
Picture this: You're in the middle of a huge maze. I mean HUGE. Miles and miles across. You're completely alone. There's a catch:You can't see. At all. You've become blind. After hours of wandering aimlessly, you finally give up and sink to the ground. You start to cry. Then you start to pray, pleading for some guidance. You hear something. What is that? It's in your head. Is that.... directions? Sure enough! There's a voice, pure and true, giving you directions! You don't know where they lead you to, good or bad, but it's worth a shot! And better than just sitting there. You scramble to your feet. Did it say left or right first? It repeats the directions. 3 steps forward, sharp left, 7 steps forwards, take a right, etc. You start following the directions. After a few hours you get tired, sometimes you want to just go the way YOU choose. You stub your toe, run into a wall, or fall down, but the voice is always there whether you choose to listen to it or not. After what seems like a lifetime, you make it to the end of the maze. You sigh with relief. You did it! Or did you? Could you have done it on your own? There's no WAY you would have made it out of that maze all by yourself! Suddenly you can see again. You're not blind anymore! Hallelujiah! You're blinded by the glory of the one in front of you. Who is that? Why are they glowing so brightly?
He smiles at you and introduces himself as the voice inside your head. Jesus.
The maze is life. Life has endless twists and turns, we can't see far enough ahead to have any idea what's coming at us! If we don't follow God's plans and guidance: sure maybe we'll totter around a bit and maybe end up on the right path, but eventually you're going to stub your toe or run into a wall. Not so good, huh?
Mark 8:34-35 -- Then he (Jesus) called the crowd to him along with his disciples and said: "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me and for the gospel will save it.
Picture this: You're in the middle of a huge maze. I mean HUGE. Miles and miles across. You're completely alone. There's a catch:You can't see. At all. You've become blind. After hours of wandering aimlessly, you finally give up and sink to the ground. You start to cry. Then you start to pray, pleading for some guidance. You hear something. What is that? It's in your head. Is that.... directions? Sure enough! There's a voice, pure and true, giving you directions! You don't know where they lead you to, good or bad, but it's worth a shot! And better than just sitting there. You scramble to your feet. Did it say left or right first? It repeats the directions. 3 steps forward, sharp left, 7 steps forwards, take a right, etc. You start following the directions. After a few hours you get tired, sometimes you want to just go the way YOU choose. You stub your toe, run into a wall, or fall down, but the voice is always there whether you choose to listen to it or not. After what seems like a lifetime, you make it to the end of the maze. You sigh with relief. You did it! Or did you? Could you have done it on your own? There's no WAY you would have made it out of that maze all by yourself! Suddenly you can see again. You're not blind anymore! Hallelujiah! You're blinded by the glory of the one in front of you. Who is that? Why are they glowing so brightly?
He smiles at you and introduces himself as the voice inside your head. Jesus.
The maze is life. Life has endless twists and turns, we can't see far enough ahead to have any idea what's coming at us! If we don't follow God's plans and guidance: sure maybe we'll totter around a bit and maybe end up on the right path, but eventually you're going to stub your toe or run into a wall. Not so good, huh?
Mark 8:34-35 -- Then he (Jesus) called the crowd to him along with his disciples and said: "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me and for the gospel will save it.
Take Time to Smell the Roses!
Take Time to Smell the Roses!
So we were driving somewhere for my little sister's birthday dinner and i began to think. How much of our lives do we really live in the present? Half the time i know that i'm either remembering good times from the past or dreaming about the future. How much do i end up missing by wishing i could go back in time or fast forward? Sometimes i find myself wishing i could fast forward the 'boring' parts of life. But are any parts of life boring at all really? If we didn't have boring parts of our life then the exciting parts wouldn't be as exciting. Do we realize that what we wish to skip over could be the most impacting moment of our lives? Sometimes the boring parts of life are the best parts! If we're too busy dreaming or wishing then how can we fully realize all the opportunities we have? God's creation is awesome now , not just in the past or the future! So next time you catch yourself thinking about the past or the future, remember that right now is where God wants you, and that's a beautiful thing! Before you know it you'll be old and you'll wonder where all your time went. So take time to enjoy life and God's beautiful creation! :)
My Jesus
My Jesus
Jesus is:
My strong tower.
Redeemer.
Savior.
Almighty God.
Amazing One.
The Lion of God.
My Best Friend.
Passionate.
Loving.
Caring.
Slow to Anger.
Quick to Love.
Always there for me.
Jehovah.
Alpha and Omega.
Author of Life.
Beginning and the End.
Comforter.
Creator.
Counselor.
My Rock.
Consuming Fire.
Everlasting.
God’s Son.
Good Shepherd.
Holy.
Immanuel.
Living Water.
Mighty to Save.
Potter.
Purifier.
Righteous.
Unique.
Truth.
The Way.
The Vine
My strong tower.
Redeemer.
Savior.
Almighty God.
Amazing One.
The Lion of God.
My Best Friend.
Passionate.
Loving.
Caring.
Slow to Anger.
Quick to Love.
Always there for me.
Jehovah.
Alpha and Omega.
Author of Life.
Beginning and the End.
Comforter.
Creator.
Counselor.
My Rock.
Consuming Fire.
Everlasting.
God’s Son.
Good Shepherd.
Holy.
Immanuel.
Living Water.
Mighty to Save.
Potter.
Purifier.
Righteous.
Unique.
Truth.
The Way.
The Vine
Complete Praise
Complete Praise
So as i was doing my devotions tonight and just hanging out with Jesus, I was thinking about church. As you stand up in church (at least we do) to worship our Savior, if you look around most of the people will be standing with their arms crossed or at their sides. Some 'rebels' will have their hands in the air. If we as Christians know that we were SAVED by the most incredible being in the entirety of things to come and everything there ever is shouldn't we give him more praise than just standing there? we should be jumping for joy shouting his praise at the tops of our lungs until our voices are hoarse! God is SO amazing that he gave us his ONLY SON. Can you imagine going through all the pain of raising your child just to know that one day you would let him DIE for all these people you didn't know? Would you be able to do it? I don't know about you, but im pretty sure when i have kids ill be able to better understand the love God has for us! I've been thinking a lot lately about things that we as Christians come to think are just normal. Jesus died for our sins and rose again on the 3rd day yada yada. I think that we get these things drilled into our brains SO MUCH that they lose their clarity. This is THE most amazing thing to ever happen and we just treat it nonchallantly because we are used to hearing about it. God is AMAZING and completely and totally UNIQUE in every way! There never has been and never will be anyone like him! We should be filled with AWE every morning and night because this PERFECT being loves US! We sin SO MUCH and God HATES sin, yet he gives us uncompromiseable love! That just boggles my mind! That GOD, totally completely PERFECT in every sense, could love ME when i sin SO MUCH? It's awe-inspiring!
When we have praise and worship time in church do you listen? No i mean REALLY listen? Read the words and think about them! We are singing awesome praises to him and a lot of people don't even stop to realize what we are saying! I've started taking a praise song, some i've known my whole life, that have become ritual to me and disecting it before i go to sleep. It helps me by thinking about the meaning either word by word or line by line. You'll find out a lot of these songs are actually really really cool! No matter how long you've been singing it, how old the song is, or how boring it might be, it's really all about GOD. Who cares if you don't like the song or it doesn't fit your range very well? Sing out and sing proudly! You're praising the most AMAZING being in the entire universe! Act excited! Throw your hands up in the air in completely admiration! God is AMAZING in everyway! Act amazed.
I don't know about you, but as i praise in church, sometimes a song will just hit me (not literally... more like i realize the true meaning) and i just feel compelled to put my hands up to fully give it all to God. He's awesome. Why not? Call me a Jesus Freak, I don't care, but He is my God and i will praise him completely and entirely just the way he was meant to be praised!:)
When we have praise and worship time in church do you listen? No i mean REALLY listen? Read the words and think about them! We are singing awesome praises to him and a lot of people don't even stop to realize what we are saying! I've started taking a praise song, some i've known my whole life, that have become ritual to me and disecting it before i go to sleep. It helps me by thinking about the meaning either word by word or line by line. You'll find out a lot of these songs are actually really really cool! No matter how long you've been singing it, how old the song is, or how boring it might be, it's really all about GOD. Who cares if you don't like the song or it doesn't fit your range very well? Sing out and sing proudly! You're praising the most AMAZING being in the entire universe! Act excited! Throw your hands up in the air in completely admiration! God is AMAZING in everyway! Act amazed.
I don't know about you, but as i praise in church, sometimes a song will just hit me (not literally... more like i realize the true meaning) and i just feel compelled to put my hands up to fully give it all to God. He's awesome. Why not? Call me a Jesus Freak, I don't care, but He is my God and i will praise him completely and entirely just the way he was meant to be praised!:)
Too Soon
Too Soon
I was thinking today about how short life is. Everyday i wake up and take for granted every breath i take. At any time i could die from various things. Either a car accident, a school shooting, heart attack, or even choking! But yet we treat everyday like we deserve to live. Yesterday in choir i found out my partner for our showchoir ballad was going to shoot himself in the head and end his life. There were SO many opportunities that i had to witness and reach out to him, but i was always too tired or just didn't feel like it. Really? We as Christians are suppose to take every opportunity God gives us to reach out to those around us! We really have no idea what's going on in their lives. People tend to hide their inner anguish and frusteration, rather than letting it all out. So next time you see someone you don't normally talk to or just hangs with a different group of people, say hi and start a conversation. You never know how you could be helping them!
Shooting Star
Shooting Star
One night I saw a star
gleaming at me from afar
I watched it shining oh so bright
filling the night sky with its light
then suddenly I couldn't believe my eyes
the light flashed and seemed to rise
before it started its lengthy descent
making absolutely certain its intent
it flew by and we watched in awe
a sight so natural and raw
it zoomed to the ground below
what a brilliant, breath-taking show
I looked around and grinned in glee
praise the Lord that sight I did see!
gleaming at me from afar
I watched it shining oh so bright
filling the night sky with its light
then suddenly I couldn't believe my eyes
the light flashed and seemed to rise
before it started its lengthy descent
making absolutely certain its intent
it flew by and we watched in awe
a sight so natural and raw
it zoomed to the ground below
what a brilliant, breath-taking show
I looked around and grinned in glee
praise the Lord that sight I did see!
Open Book
Open Book
I'm a open book
Whether or not you take a look
Is up to you to decide
It's been a while since someone's tried
I'm always up to answer your query
I promise I'm not scary
I've gone through trials
I've walked many miles
There's a lot people don't know
On the outside it doesn't show
Like the depth of my soul
If I ever feel whole
Emotion that consumes
My eyes can speak volumes
Inside I was a different person
Before I lived my life as a Christian
I wear a smile on my face
I've been saved by grace
On the outside I'm just a girl
On the inside, I could take on the world
My heart is on open book
with God's handwriting all over it.
Whether or not you take a look
Is up to you to decide
It's been a while since someone's tried
I'm always up to answer your query
I promise I'm not scary
I've gone through trials
I've walked many miles
There's a lot people don't know
On the outside it doesn't show
Like the depth of my soul
If I ever feel whole
Emotion that consumes
My eyes can speak volumes
Inside I was a different person
Before I lived my life as a Christian
I wear a smile on my face
I've been saved by grace
On the outside I'm just a girl
On the inside, I could take on the world
My heart is on open book
with God's handwriting all over it.
Creativity: A Blessing or a Curse?
Creativity: A Blessing or a Curse?
Sometimes the creativity just wells up inside of me so much so that I think i might burst into a huge mass of rainbow creativity goo. It rolls over me like a tidal wave, threatening to devour my very being if I don't submit.
Creativity: A Blessing or a Curse?
When i feel like this inside
it cannot be denied
I sprint for a pen
Then write a word...
Or ten
It devours me from the inside out
in my mind there is no doubt
It cannot be contained
My composure cannot be sustained
I run, i jump, i fly
pen in hand -- i reach the sky
There's nothing you can do
it cannot be subdued
When I'm finished i smile and sigh
It won't be long before the next time.
Creativity: A Blessing or a Curse?
When i feel like this inside
it cannot be denied
I sprint for a pen
Then write a word...
Or ten
It devours me from the inside out
in my mind there is no doubt
It cannot be contained
My composure cannot be sustained
I run, i jump, i fly
pen in hand -- i reach the sky
There's nothing you can do
it cannot be subdued
When I'm finished i smile and sigh
It won't be long before the next time.
Tree Time
Tree Time
Green Lush
Beautious Blush
Naked Scorn
Forever Forlorn
Perfect Shade
Brilliant Brocade
Marvelous Changes
Perfect Arranges
Beautious Blush
Naked Scorn
Forever Forlorn
Perfect Shade
Brilliant Brocade
Marvelous Changes
Perfect Arranges
Piano Keys
Piano Keys
The keys on the piano
Black & White
evenly spaced
beautiful harmony
agonizing catastrophy
perfect symmetry
clear tone
musical genious.
Black & White
evenly spaced
beautiful harmony
agonizing catastrophy
perfect symmetry
clear tone
musical genious.
Love
Love
Would you rather have loved and lost or have never loved at all?
Love, what a funny word.
Four letters -- all in a row.
The meaning behind that one small little word
it can mean the difference between happiness and devastation
worry and joy, gladness and grief.
"I love you" -- eight letters, three words.
Those three words hold power,
power only to be unleashed when the words are truly meant.
Not to be said if you don't mean it,
the other person said it first,
or you feel obligated.
Use them wisely.
The power they wield is unmatchable.
Life & Death.
Love & Loss.
The choices are endless.
Love, what a funny word.
Four letters -- all in a row.
The meaning behind that one small little word
it can mean the difference between happiness and devastation
worry and joy, gladness and grief.
"I love you" -- eight letters, three words.
Those three words hold power,
power only to be unleashed when the words are truly meant.
Not to be said if you don't mean it,
the other person said it first,
or you feel obligated.
Use them wisely.
The power they wield is unmatchable.
Life & Death.
Love & Loss.
The choices are endless.
I Love You
I Love You
A poem I wrote for my Grandfather Royce Luiken when I was 10
I held your hand, but couldn't keep you from dying.
I wanted to say goodbye, but the words wouldn't come out.
I wanted to say "i love you" but put it off and thought "i'll say it later,"
and then forgot all together.
I cried for hours and thought,
"Why me? Why now? When i need it so much?"
And then you were going. I cried uncontrollably for the next hour or two.
It was true. I missed you already.
I just wanted to you to know
I love you.
I held your hand, but couldn't keep you from dying.
I wanted to say goodbye, but the words wouldn't come out.
I wanted to say "i love you" but put it off and thought "i'll say it later,"
and then forgot all together.
I cried for hours and thought,
"Why me? Why now? When i need it so much?"
And then you were going. I cried uncontrollably for the next hour or two.
It was true. I missed you already.
I just wanted to you to know
I love you.
Paradise
Paradise
Will you take me away to see
everything that we could be
take me somewhere away so far
you can't get there by plan or car
where ever you are, that's where i'll stay
no matter what happens or what you say
i want to keep close everything i know
so where you are, i'll be also
there's this place called Paradise,
i've heard it can be kinda nice
somewhere no one else has heard
if you wanna go just say the word
sometimes life feels like a dream
so much so that i want to scream
everything goes rushing by
you don't have time to ask me why
lets go to a castle in the clouds
so far up off of the ground
all the people walking down below
if they could see us they'd wave hello
what a funny sight we'd be
if only those below could see
everything that we could be
take me somewhere away so far
you can't get there by plan or car
where ever you are, that's where i'll stay
no matter what happens or what you say
i want to keep close everything i know
so where you are, i'll be also
there's this place called Paradise,
i've heard it can be kinda nice
somewhere no one else has heard
if you wanna go just say the word
sometimes life feels like a dream
so much so that i want to scream
everything goes rushing by
you don't have time to ask me why
lets go to a castle in the clouds
so far up off of the ground
all the people walking down below
if they could see us they'd wave hello
what a funny sight we'd be
if only those below could see
A Warm Summer Day
A Warm Summer Day
Guilty Pleasure
Sitting outside all day
The sun on my back
Wind on my skin
Smile on my face
Notebook on my lap
Pencil in my hand
Song in my heart
Music in my ears
Warm temperatures
Complete surrender
Daydreaming blissfully
Cloud watching
Trampoline napping
Perfect Day
Sitting outside all day
The sun on my back
Wind on my skin
Smile on my face
Notebook on my lap
Pencil in my hand
Song in my heart
Music in my ears
Warm temperatures
Complete surrender
Daydreaming blissfully
Cloud watching
Trampoline napping
Perfect Day
If I told you
If I told you
If i told you
a song by Me
If i told you i love you
would you tell me the truth
would you get real confused
if i told you i love you
if i told you i'm sorry
i really messed up
i got mad and gave up
if i told you i'm sorry
if i told you i miss you
would you listen to what i say
tell me you feel the same way
if i told you i miss you
if i told you that i, i, i -- can't live without you
i need you here beside me
hold my hand and count to three
i can't live without you
if i told you that i need to get away
forget the past and run someplace
so very far away from here
if i told you i need to get away
if i told you i'm frusterated
everything seems over rated
i need to see from a different point of view
if i told you i'm frusterated
if i told you forever and always
i'll be by your side
picking up the pieces
looking in your eyes
forever and always
if i told you that i believe in happy ending
we can end up exactly how we wish
fairy tale endings can happen
if i told you i believe in happy endings
a song by Me
If i told you i love you
would you tell me the truth
would you get real confused
if i told you i love you
if i told you i'm sorry
i really messed up
i got mad and gave up
if i told you i'm sorry
if i told you i miss you
would you listen to what i say
tell me you feel the same way
if i told you i miss you
if i told you that i, i, i -- can't live without you
i need you here beside me
hold my hand and count to three
i can't live without you
if i told you that i need to get away
forget the past and run someplace
so very far away from here
if i told you i need to get away
if i told you i'm frusterated
everything seems over rated
i need to see from a different point of view
if i told you i'm frusterated
if i told you forever and always
i'll be by your side
picking up the pieces
looking in your eyes
forever and always
if i told you that i believe in happy ending
we can end up exactly how we wish
fairy tale endings can happen
if i told you i believe in happy endings
Happily Ever After
Happily Ever After
Happily Never After
Fairy Tale Endings
Hardly Ever Forever
Peaceful Oblivion
Perfect Submission
Rose Colored Glasses
Prince Charming
White Horse
Damsel in Distress
Till Death Do Us Part
Fairy Tale Endings
Hardly Ever Forever
Peaceful Oblivion
Perfect Submission
Rose Colored Glasses
Prince Charming
White Horse
Damsel in Distress
Till Death Do Us Part
Constant Bombardment
Constant Bombardment
Lately Satan has taken advantage of my lack of defense and is constantly bombarding me with different things. "You're not good enough, pretty enough, you aren't beautiful enough for boys to like you, you're too goody goody, blah blah" and as much as I want to say that it doesn't effect me -- to an extent, it does! He takes these words and twists them into me like screws. So the more he works at it, the deeper they go. Everything I have a break through with God, Satan attacks me more and more. When I don't get much out of devos, or it's shorter because I'm too tired to concentrate, Satan doesn't hurt me as much. But even when I'm being ripped apart -- I find my strength in God. He is my solace. (Phillipians 4:13) So I haven't been the happiest girl lately. Lots of fetal position sitting in my room, thinking about stuff, and being upset while driving. No more taylor swift sing alongs in my car, just loud dance music that lets me drown out my thought for a few blissful moments.
Broken
Broken
I'm broken inside
the gap in my heart is wide
I don't know where to turn
You'd think by now I'd learn
I look to the cross
for words, I'm at a loss
You stand with open arms
say you'll banish all harms
I smile through my tears
You've been here all my years
No matter how much pain
You're the one who keeps me sane
You get rid of all my sorrows
and show me a new tomorrow
Even when all hope is lost
For my sin, you paid the cost
My pride has always gotten in the way
Through thick and thin you'll stay
You pick up the pieces
Your goodness never ceases
You'll love me forever
You won't leave me ever.
the gap in my heart is wide
I don't know where to turn
You'd think by now I'd learn
I look to the cross
for words, I'm at a loss
You stand with open arms
say you'll banish all harms
I smile through my tears
You've been here all my years
No matter how much pain
You're the one who keeps me sane
You get rid of all my sorrows
and show me a new tomorrow
Even when all hope is lost
For my sin, you paid the cost
My pride has always gotten in the way
Through thick and thin you'll stay
You pick up the pieces
Your goodness never ceases
You'll love me forever
You won't leave me ever.
Speak to Me
Speak to Me
Blow me away.
Leave me speechless.
Leave my life in disarray.
Make me give you notice.
or
Answer me in silence.
I can't feel you or touch you.
All I feel is distance.
Teach me that silence is of value.
or
I revel in these desert places.
Challenge me softly.
It's not the runners, it's the races.
These are the times I miss you awfully.
or
Answer me with banging, clanging or clatter.
When life goes by too fast
for anything else to matter.
In the end, nothing earthly will last.
Any of these ways will work,
which ever one you choose,
I love you more and more each day.
Take my life to use.
Leave me speechless.
Leave my life in disarray.
Make me give you notice.
or
Answer me in silence.
I can't feel you or touch you.
All I feel is distance.
Teach me that silence is of value.
or
I revel in these desert places.
Challenge me softly.
It's not the runners, it's the races.
These are the times I miss you awfully.
or
Answer me with banging, clanging or clatter.
When life goes by too fast
for anything else to matter.
In the end, nothing earthly will last.
Any of these ways will work,
which ever one you choose,
I love you more and more each day.
Take my life to use.
God & Me
God & Me
I'm a candle, God's the flame.
I'm a cloud, God's the rain.
I'm a book, God's the author.
I'm a knight, God's my armor.
I'm the radar, God's the meterologist.
I'm the sauce, God's the crust.
I'm a phone, God's the signal.
I'm a car, God's the fuel.
I'm a keyboard, God's the mouse.
I'm the windows, God's the house.
I'm the branches, God's the vine.
I'm a catcus, God's the pines.
I'm a balloon, God's the air.
I'm the stuffing, God's the bear.
I'm the dust, God's the breeze.
I'm the legs, God's the knees.
I'm a panda, God's the eucalyptus.
I'm broken, God's my solace.
I'm a cloud, God's the rain.
I'm a book, God's the author.
I'm a knight, God's my armor.
I'm the radar, God's the meterologist.
I'm the sauce, God's the crust.
I'm a phone, God's the signal.
I'm a car, God's the fuel.
I'm a keyboard, God's the mouse.
I'm the windows, God's the house.
I'm the branches, God's the vine.
I'm a catcus, God's the pines.
I'm a balloon, God's the air.
I'm the stuffing, God's the bear.
I'm the dust, God's the breeze.
I'm the legs, God's the knees.
I'm a panda, God's the eucalyptus.
I'm broken, God's my solace.
Awesome Power
Awesome Power
I'm so amazed
by your Mercy & your Grace
You're greater than great
You love those who hate
You give to the undeserving
Forgive those who are sinning
You cleanse the unclean
You see the unseen
You stand before me
i'm awestruck by your glory
I was stuck in the dark
Then I saw a tiny spark
which lit into a flame
Into the light I came
Never to look back
I desire to stay on track
You light my path
I stay away from Your wrath
You consume my every desire
You're in the wind, the dust, the fire
You fill me with your love
I can never get enough
Each moment I pray
to be more in love with You everyday
I think of Your son
and the spiritual battle you won
the beautiful angel did fall
Lucifer never had a chance at all
the battle you did win
conquering all of our sin
that day on the cross
no victory was lost
three days did pass
all boundaries of death You did surpass
returning to Your father
of my book, he is my author.
by your Mercy & your Grace
You're greater than great
You love those who hate
You give to the undeserving
Forgive those who are sinning
You cleanse the unclean
You see the unseen
You stand before me
i'm awestruck by your glory
I was stuck in the dark
Then I saw a tiny spark
which lit into a flame
Into the light I came
Never to look back
I desire to stay on track
You light my path
I stay away from Your wrath
You consume my every desire
You're in the wind, the dust, the fire
You fill me with your love
I can never get enough
Each moment I pray
to be more in love with You everyday
I think of Your son
and the spiritual battle you won
the beautiful angel did fall
Lucifer never had a chance at all
the battle you did win
conquering all of our sin
that day on the cross
no victory was lost
three days did pass
all boundaries of death You did surpass
returning to Your father
of my book, he is my author.
The Ultimate Love Story
The Ultimate Love Story
This is a poem i wrote for my future husband, but chose to share with you guys anyways :)
You could be the
Boaz to my Ruth
Xerxes to my Esther
in this i tell the truth
no one could love you better
you could be the
Joseph to my Mary
Lover to my Beloved
you'll never need to be wary
i'll cherish you forever
i'll leave you never
'till death do us part
this is only the start
of a beautiful friendship
a lifetime of a trip
the ultimate love story
you don't need to worry
it'll be talked about for a while
i'd do anything to see you smile
i love you more than words can say
nothing can ever take that away
sometimes i feel like we're in a movie
i love you so very truly
what we have is something unique
don't take a step back and think
what God gave us is something great
in marriage we will participate
i love you more than you'll ever know
i can't wait to see where we will go
You can be the David to my Abigail
a love like ours will never fail.
{In Progress}
You could be the
Boaz to my Ruth
Xerxes to my Esther
in this i tell the truth
no one could love you better
you could be the
Joseph to my Mary
Lover to my Beloved
you'll never need to be wary
i'll cherish you forever
i'll leave you never
'till death do us part
this is only the start
of a beautiful friendship
a lifetime of a trip
the ultimate love story
you don't need to worry
it'll be talked about for a while
i'd do anything to see you smile
i love you more than words can say
nothing can ever take that away
sometimes i feel like we're in a movie
i love you so very truly
what we have is something unique
don't take a step back and think
what God gave us is something great
in marriage we will participate
i love you more than you'll ever know
i can't wait to see where we will go
You can be the David to my Abigail
a love like ours will never fail.
{In Progress}
Another Love Song for Jesus
Another Love Song for Jesus
You brighten my day
and my my biggest fears all go away
I love you
When i think of you i smile
you make my pain go away for a while
i love you
You are the reason for this love song
Holy is the King in who's arms i belong
The reason for my heart to cry out
for you i dance and twirl about
i love him so i sing
a love song for my King
I look around and gasp in awestruck wonder
at all your beautiful creation and your splendor
Mountains are moved, and rocks cry out
they sing of all that you're love is about
the trees call out Hallelujiah to our God
in spite of our great efforts we are flawed
You sent your son to die for me,
He was perfection; in everyway Holy,
you pour out your Mercy and your grace
I hope someday to meet you face to face.
I'm in love, what can i say?
You make all my pain and tears just melt away.
I am in awe of your mighty power,
I could talk to you hour after hour.
I love you of that i'm sure,
for you my body i'll keep pure.
I'm in love with my savior,
our awesome creator.
You soak up my every tear,
my every plea and prayer you hear.
My Jesus
and my my biggest fears all go away
I love you
When i think of you i smile
you make my pain go away for a while
i love you
You are the reason for this love song
Holy is the King in who's arms i belong
The reason for my heart to cry out
for you i dance and twirl about
i love him so i sing
a love song for my King
I look around and gasp in awestruck wonder
at all your beautiful creation and your splendor
Mountains are moved, and rocks cry out
they sing of all that you're love is about
the trees call out Hallelujiah to our God
in spite of our great efforts we are flawed
You sent your son to die for me,
He was perfection; in everyway Holy,
you pour out your Mercy and your grace
I hope someday to meet you face to face.
I'm in love, what can i say?
You make all my pain and tears just melt away.
I am in awe of your mighty power,
I could talk to you hour after hour.
I love you of that i'm sure,
for you my body i'll keep pure.
I'm in love with my savior,
our awesome creator.
You soak up my every tear,
my every plea and prayer you hear.
My Jesus
Love Song for a Savior
Love Song for a Savior
He makes my pulse flutter.
My Heart race.
Butterflies in my stomache.
A smile on my face.
A beautiful desire,
to fall at His feet.
The one who came an conquered sin,
all the darkness to defeat.
The ultimate warrior King,
died for MY sins on the cross.
Even to this day we do sing,
about our greatest loss.
He's the ultimate catch,
lover of the unholy.
I love him,
But am i IN love with Him?
I should be,
but it's so hard for me.
He should be my main focus,
the object of my praise,
there in every crisis.
I should lift up his Holy name.
How many times do i stray?
From the path so narrow,
the only way.
He's the way, the truth, the life,
here in darkness and in strife.
In pain and anguish,
for my wrong doings -- he did perish.
He's perfect and Holy,
he protects my heart.
The beat him so cruely,
he's loved me from the start.
He gazes down upon,
my ragged, tear stained face,
in loving mercy and in kindness,
he bestows his forgiving grace.
Do i deserve it?
Not a chance.
He slaughtered Lucifer,
our lives to enhance.
We should live out every second,
every single goal,
listening to His word,
at that moment -- my heart He stole.
The Bible is truth,
the living word of God,
every word is proof,
that His love for us is Strong.
I love you, my God.
Help me be IN love with you
My Heart race.
Butterflies in my stomache.
A smile on my face.
A beautiful desire,
to fall at His feet.
The one who came an conquered sin,
all the darkness to defeat.
The ultimate warrior King,
died for MY sins on the cross.
Even to this day we do sing,
about our greatest loss.
He's the ultimate catch,
lover of the unholy.
I love him,
But am i IN love with Him?
I should be,
but it's so hard for me.
He should be my main focus,
the object of my praise,
there in every crisis.
I should lift up his Holy name.
How many times do i stray?
From the path so narrow,
the only way.
He's the way, the truth, the life,
here in darkness and in strife.
In pain and anguish,
for my wrong doings -- he did perish.
He's perfect and Holy,
he protects my heart.
The beat him so cruely,
he's loved me from the start.
He gazes down upon,
my ragged, tear stained face,
in loving mercy and in kindness,
he bestows his forgiving grace.
Do i deserve it?
Not a chance.
He slaughtered Lucifer,
our lives to enhance.
We should live out every second,
every single goal,
listening to His word,
at that moment -- my heart He stole.
The Bible is truth,
the living word of God,
every word is proof,
that His love for us is Strong.
I love you, my God.
Help me be IN love with you
Awesome God
Awesome God
How great is our God
Sing with me, how great is our God?
And all who see,
How great,
How great,
Is our God?
I just want to challenge you with this:
How many times a week do you take time out of your day to just praise God for his awesome creation?
How many minutes of your day do you spend thanking God for what he's given you?
How many times an hour do you take things for granted?
If you died today would God pat you on the back and say "You've done well, my child?" or be dissapointed in you?
When that song came on the radio, i started singing along. Then i really started listening to the Lyrics, and i almost had to pull over because i was weeping so hard.
What do my goals matter in the span of life? Why should i waste my precious time on earth doing things that don't honor God, or aren't a witness to His name?
Sing with me, how great is our God?
And all who see,
How great,
How great,
Is our God?
I just want to challenge you with this:
How many times a week do you take time out of your day to just praise God for his awesome creation?
How many minutes of your day do you spend thanking God for what he's given you?
How many times an hour do you take things for granted?
If you died today would God pat you on the back and say "You've done well, my child?" or be dissapointed in you?
When that song came on the radio, i started singing along. Then i really started listening to the Lyrics, and i almost had to pull over because i was weeping so hard.
What do my goals matter in the span of life? Why should i waste my precious time on earth doing things that don't honor God, or aren't a witness to His name?
I'm so in love with You
I'm so in love with You
Recently i've been thinking, i know i love God, but am i IN love with Him?
This caused me to think back...
He's the greatest warrior,
the fiercest fighter,
the slayer of sins,
the redeemer and truth,
the everlasting life,
the abba father,
the beginning and the end,
he created the world,
so why am i not in love with Him?
Sure i love Him, but i should be so in love with Him that i'm focused on Him 100% of the time. Like loving a spouse, only more.
He should make my pulse race, my heart sing, and put a smile on my face. And to think that i don't have to text, facebook, or call him -- i can talk to Him at any time!
Prayer is Powerful.
Jesus i am so in Love with you!
This caused me to think back...
He's the greatest warrior,
the fiercest fighter,
the slayer of sins,
the redeemer and truth,
the everlasting life,
the abba father,
the beginning and the end,
he created the world,
so why am i not in love with Him?
Sure i love Him, but i should be so in love with Him that i'm focused on Him 100% of the time. Like loving a spouse, only more.
He should make my pulse race, my heart sing, and put a smile on my face. And to think that i don't have to text, facebook, or call him -- i can talk to Him at any time!
Prayer is Powerful.
Jesus i am so in Love with you!
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