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I'm Torn.

Published on 6:14 PM By Aunica
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I love my job. Don't get me wrong. I'm deeply grateful for the opportunities I've been given, but it's not always easy. It's a blessing and a curse to live between these two countries - to constantly feel like I'm in an epic battle of tug and war between the Dominican Republic and the United States. When I'm in the US, I miss the culture of the DR - the people, the worship, the fruit, the weather, the list goes on. When I'm in the DR my heart aches for the big life moments I'm missing out on - friends getting married and babies entering the world among other things.

 I'm trying to live life wedged in the crack between these two countries I love deeply, and I'm trying not to get lost in the chasm. Sometimes it get overwhelming, always catching people up on what's going on, feeling like I'm constantly trying to explain my heart and experiences. How can I love both of these countries so much? And how can I choose between them? To be honest, it's really hard. I don't have many friends who have spent long periods of time in other countries and can relate to my experiences. 

I'm learning.
How to explain things well.
How to smile genuinely when people don't understand and give them grace for their ignorance.
How to give myself grace for my own ignorance.
How to live in the crack.
How to live life with open palms.

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