My Biggest Fear

My biggest fear isn't drowning.
It isn't spiders, snakes, or the color blue.
I'm not afraid of death.
My biggest fear is complacency.
I'm scared to death that I'll wake up one day,
near the end of my life,
and realize that I've wasted my life.
That I will go through life like anyone else.
That I won't share the gospel.
That I'll lose my desire for God.
That I'll forget what matters most - bringing glory to God.
That somehow, somewhere in the mix of life - I'll get off the narrow path.
That I'll stumble into the american dream,
and somehow find a shallow satisfaction in that.
What do I want to do, and desire above all other things?
To live a life that's glorifying to God.
To be able to face Him one day and know that,
while I will fail,
through my mistakes and short comings He was glorified.
That somehow through my sinful nature and failures,
the Kingdom of God was furthered and people were brought to the Lord.
Not through anything I had done, but through Christ's Redeeming blood.
This is my biggest fear.
The first step to overcoming fears is recognition, right?
My prayer is that Christ will give me the strength to conquer this,
may it never be the truth or the life I live.

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