I mean, really NEED him.
In my sanctification process, as I continue to learn and grow closer to Him, I see more and more the deep necessity to lean on Him.
This week was tough, but I'm learning to lean on Christ.
I see more and more how trials, struggles, and hardship push me towards Him.
These seasons, while they're hard and can definitely lead to hopelessness, can also lead to a deeper reliance on Christ.
I've seen my own weakness and inability to survive without a daily dependence on Christ.
In the heart of the storm, it's all I can do to cling to my Jesus. To crawl to the cross. To kneel, unashamed. To give my broken and bleeding heart to the one with holes in His hands and compassion in His eyes.
These seasons suck. Really, they do. I hate struggling. I hate being weak. I hate that satan's attacking me full force. But instead of feeling hopeless and full of despair like I did in past seasons of trial, I find peace and comfort in Christ. I breathe deeply, knowing that He is in control. I'm praying for His armor.
As I'm being tested, I pray for help. I search for the deceiver's lies, and replace them with truth. I find the snake in tough situations, I see his schemes for what they are. He's good, I'll give him that - he knows what he's doing, but our God is infinitely more powerful, and His truth has staying power.
Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm. Stand therefore, having fastened on the belt of truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, and, as shoes for your feet, having put on the readiness given by the gospel of peace. In all circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one; and take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God, praying at all times in the Spirit, with all prayer and supplication. To that end keep alert with all perseverance, making supplication for all the saints, and also for me, that words may be given to me in opening my mouth boldly to proclaim the mystery of the gospel, for which I am an ambassador in chains, that I may declare it boldly, as I ought to speak.
(Ephesians 6:10-20 ESV)
The battle is raging, but the victory is won. It is finished. We are victorious in Christ.
