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Peace & Serenity

Published on 8:38 AM By Aunica
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Peaceful serenity.
The rest that comes soley from God's presence.
What a week.
As a quad leader, I scarcely had a moment when I wasn't running around helping people, listening to sessions, or listening to people recite their passages.
Don't get me wrong, I love being a quad leader, but it's super draining - especially after going straight from college to camp.
After 12 hours of sleep, a shower, and a load of laundry in the dryer - I'm finally beginning to feel like myself again.
No stress.
Just deeply breathing in what God exhales through His word.
What a beautiful, beautiful gift it is to be able to spend this morning with the Lord.
The birds are singing and the sun has scarcely met the top of the trees.
I sit in wonder and awe at the beauty of creation.
Mmm. So good.
6 campers this week. My first thought was "I can do it", then I realized how completely absurd that is.
There's no way, no matter how few campers I have, that I can make it through the week without completely surrendering and rely on God's strength to get me through.
If there's anything I've learned in the last week, it's my own weakness.
Man.
"Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be satisfied."
(( Matthew 5:6 ))
"Come to Me all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." ((Matthew 11:28-29 ))

I've heard that passage so many times, but it isn't until I fully reach the depth of exhaustion that I can come to more fully understand this. I am weary. I am burdened. I need rest. I've tried time and time again this week to work to please others. To please my boss. To please the area directors. To please the counseling staff. But at the end of the week - I've come to realize that I can't do it. That if at the end of the summer I can say I've worked to please God, then no one else matters. In the process of living to glorify God - everything else will fall into place. His yoke is easy, and His burden is light.
It's not until I acknowledge the depths of my spiritual poverty and bankruptcy that God can work. I don't have to try to save myself. My works, no matter how hard I try, won't get me to heaven. That's not grace. That's now how it works. Even if I please everyone and make it through the summer as the best quad leader ever, or something equally as absurd, my works would still be filthy rags. Works come from my desire to glorify God. As I work to glorify God, everything else will fall into place in spite of my own depravity.

God can either work through me or in spite of me. I pray that it's the first.
Aunica

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