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Current State of the Union: Overwhelmed

Published on 10:57 PM By Aunica
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A couple weeks ago if you had asked me how I felt about college I'd have told you I was ecstatic. A week after that I'd have told you impatient. Last week I'd have told you anxious. But this week my overarching theme of emotion is feeling overwhelmed. I glance around my room and all I see is boxes. My closet? Empty. My dresser? Empty. My desk? Empty. All the comforts of having somewhere to put my clean laundry are gone, instead its thrown into tubs and bins to be carted off to college next Tuesday. I'm packed, but its not organized. I feel prepared, but at the same time I feel like I'm never going to be ready. I don't want to say goodbye. I realized today that the number of times I'll see my best friends before I leave can be counted on one hand, and that made me nervous. Like I'm sliding down a waterslide and I don't want to drop off the end. As it twists and turns I stifle a scream as it plummets me through its darkened interiors, when all I wanted was a light and a brake peddle. But sadly, waterslides don't come with either of those things. As I slip and slide down the chute as it plummets me closer and closer to the end I can't help but wish I could somehow grip and grasp the sides to slow myself down. To be able to take in the last whiff of homemade cookies. To take in every last moment I have with my family. To enjoy every last laugh with my friends. To cherish each moment that I'm given. These last days seem to stretch out forever, and a part of me really believes they'll never end. That I'll be stuck here perpetually bouncing between high school and college, but I'll never leave. That I'll stay comfortable at home with my parents and my friends. Reality? I'm leaving for college in 9 days. I'm packed and as ready as I'll ever be. There's one thing I know for sure. Well two things. One: I'll never be ready, but I'm prepared. Two: God is going to be right by my side holding my hand. So what do I have to fear? So as I plummet through the darkened tubes of rushing water, I smile and thank the Lord for the journey I've had so far. I thank him for the good times and the bad, and how He has shaped me to be the woman I am today. And I pray that He will guide my path in life so that I can best honor Him with my life and bring glory to His name. I'm nearing the end of this water slide before I go to a new water park and run up the stairs to the top, ready to jump into whatever journey God has planned for me next. Where ever that slide will take me, I'm prepared to go. After all, if God is for us, who can be against us?
Aunica

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