A) Tall boys are one of four things: awkward, unattractive, not christian, or dating someone short. Story of my life? I think yes.
B) I'm not going to settle. I am not a rancher looking for land. I will stake out my territory and wait until I have a prize bull. Because honestly? I've waited this long - what's a couple more years? And if that's not God's plans - I'll wait until I die and fall into the loving embrace of Christ. Mmm. He is good.
C) I love the pirates of the Caribbean movies. A lot. I'm not really sure why, I just like them.
D) I'm regaining my emotions. After an insanely draining summer and school year, it's weird to be able to rest and rejuvinate. So that's been good, and I just feel content. Content in Christ. Content in my love for Him and His love for me, and I'm coming to terms with the fact that yes I suck and I sin, but at the same time I don't necessarily need to tear myself apart for it because guess what? God isn't dissapointed in me. He knew I would sin and He knows I'm going to sin, but at the same time I'm going to strive to live a life that's honoring and pleasing to Him. His grace is enough, and to dwell on my sins and guilt would be to take away from the grace and mercy and glory of God and that, my friends, is a sin in itself. So good news! God does, truly, love me. And I love Him.
E) College in 15 days. I'm still kind of in shock? But at the same time I'm insanely excited to see what God has in store for me. I want to grow. I want to be challenged. I want to challenge others. I want to learn.
F) I love music. A lot. There's always a song that fits my mood, or a style of music if you will. Sometimes I like to listen to country. Sometimes I like the listen to rap. But recently I've been happy to listen to worship music. To just sit in silent adoration of the King. What a blessing it is to not only have time to sit and listen, but that we have that opportunity. The comfort of being able to sit in the presence of the Lord and be content. And at the same time to not take that contentedness and stop reading the bible or stop trying to learn because I'm happy with where I'm at, but to hunger for more. To be content in the sense that I know that I'm on the right path, but wanting to run down that path. To learn more. To grow. And what a sweet, sweet thing that is.
G) I'm pretty sure I don't want to live in the US. I can much more easily picture myself living in a jungle with all of my belongings in a backpack than in a comfortable American house. I've come to the point where I dislike comfort. I think I associate comfort with things from my past, and I'd rather not. I revel in the uncomfortable. In the challenge and growth it brings. At some points you have to recognize that God also gives us comfort once and a while. That comfort in itself isn't necessarily a sin. That God truly desires for us to have happiness. That happiness for me just happens to be being pushed out of my box. I enjoy it.
H) I want to marry a missionary. Or a pastor. I just want to be part of ministry. Maybe I'll switch majors? I'm not really sure. I'm praying about it, so we'll see where God leads.
I) I like analogies. Too much? Sometimes. But they just help me process things.
J) I don't like numbering things, I'm not sure if you've gathered that from the constant lettering to attempt to somehow organize my sporadic thoughts - but I just don't like it. It gives things an order. Makes one thought better than another when in reality, they're all equally fighting for the forefront of my consciousness.
H) I love fruit. So much. We had fresh peaches today and I couldn't wipe the grin off of my face. Mmm. Thank you, Lord, for yummy healthy foods.
I) I stay up way too late. Okay, so I drank a ton of caffeine today. But coffee is good! And I like it. So I drink it anyways and just deal with the consequences.
J) I get stuck routine much too easily. I don't really like routine? But it happens. Like this - staying up late and sleeping in. I'm a morning person, really I am, but I just like nights. Being able to process things and think. And watch movies. And just spend time alone. After a school year of insanity and 8 weeks of camp, it's just nice to be alone once and a while. I'm still a very social person, but once and a while you need time alone. Just you and Jesus. But back to routine. Every day I eat basically the same things. Maybe I should change that? It's just easy. I make waffle batter every 3 days. Wheat. It's healthier. And I eat one or two with some yogurt for brunch at noon. Breakfast food is just so much better than food-food. It's good. I like it. Why change it? I'm not sure. Thoughts. Mmm.
K) I should really get back into writing creatively again. Maybe this is creative? This insane splattering of my thoughts across the screen? But I don't feel satisfied like I do after I write a poem that I really relate to or a story that I enjoy. Hmm. Perhaps I'll write.
L) I'm going to leave you with a quote from a book I'm reading. This is from chapter three of "When I don't desire God" by John Piper.
God pictures himself as a mountain spring of clean, cool, life-giving water. The way to glorify a fountain like this is to enjoy the water, and praise the water, and keep coming back to the water, and point other people to the water, and get strength for love from the water, and never, never, never prefer any drink in the world over the water. That makes the spring look valuable. This is how we glorify God, the fountain of living water.
