If you go to NWC, you've experienced the chaos and disappointment that is room draw night.
Needless to say, we didn't get the room we wanted, or even a room at all.
At the end of the night, I found myself frustrated. Angry. Overwhelmingly hopeless. Annoyed. Feeling entitled.
These are the moments that God tends to step in and remind me where I find my identity. What I hold true. What matters the most.
After a long night, I finally climbed in to bed, only to be gently nudged by God.
Aunica. How are you handling this trial? How are you handling not getting your way? How are your interactions and thoughts acting as a window to your heart? Have you really given me control? Are you really trusting Me? Do you really believe that I'm good and that I have a plan? Where is your heart, my daughter? Return to me. Let me remind You of my love and gentleness. You know God. Or I hope you do, but He reminds you of what you don't always want to remember. He turns your eyes to what you need to see - what this situation has revealed about you, and gently and lovingly teaches you through the sadness, disappointment, and pain. This was a moment I would have much rather rolled over and closed my eyes. But instead, I allowed His words to wash over me. He gently reminded me of my purpose.
I'm not saying I'm to the point where I'm happy about it. I'm far from that, but I'm getting to a place where I'm content. I know that, at the end of the day, God's in control. No matter how much I want to be, He's in control.
These situations reveal where our hearts truly are. So today, I'm praying for renewal. For eyes to see the good in what seems like a hopeless situation.
Lord, take control.
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