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Brake Time

Published on 2:44 PM By Aunica
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It's finally starting to sink in.
In two weeks, I will be home.
I will have finished my last day at Bethel.
I will be packing for the summer.
I am a quad leader.
I am a transfer student.
I am leaving a place that I like, to be a student at a place I love.
It's bittersweet.
I know that NWC holds my major and some sweet friends,
but I've really enjoyed the friendships and community I've experienced at Bethel.
Sure, it's had its frustrations.
Therve been days when I've counted down until I'm done,
but at the end of the year - I've grown here.
I've lived life here.
I'm had fellowship with some sweet people.
It's weird to think that I won't live here next year.
Somehow, that makes it harder to leave.
I love college.
College in general is just great.
I like learning.
I like studying.
I like friends.
I enjoy college a lot.
I thrive here.
What happens when I go home?
What happens at camp?
These are the questions I ask myself.
Will I truly still see these people?
I know that, as much as I'd like to, I won't be friends with most of them.
Many of the friends I've lived life with during my time at Bethel are people I will never see again.
And that is the main reason it's hard for me to think of leaving here.
I know in my heart that I'm supposed to go to NWC.
In that decision, I have major peace.
It's just the 'getting there' process that's tough.
I'll make it.
I'll survive.
It's going to hurt.
But - it's for the best.
And hey, who ever said life would be easy -
that all decisions would be a piece of cake and a pat on the back?
As much as I'd like to pretend this one will be easy,
like ripping a band aid off super quickly,
it's going to sting for a long time.
My only consolation is the knowledge that i can still visit.
It won't be the same, but it's all I have to cling onto these days.

Camp is coming. Crazy.
For the first time in my life, it's snuck up on me.
I'm certain it still will not have sunk in until I'm driving down the dirt road on May 23rd.
Not only is camp coming - but I'm a quad leader.
Wow, that makes me feel old.
I still remember my first day of camp, looking up at my counselors as if they were the wisest ladies on the planet, and the coolest for that matter.
Do kids look at me the same way?
Being on the opposite side of the looking glass, I'm not disillusioned into thinking I'm cool or wise.
Far from it.
Nothing this summer can be done without God as my rock and my cornerstone.
He is in control.
I am humbled by the knowledge that nothing will be done by me, but all by Him.
It's a gift.
A privileged.
An honor to be able to serve at camp this summer.
Mmm. May His will be done.
And may I not get in the way of His handiwork.
It's most likely my last summer at camp.
Another last.
Another hard goodbye.
Oh boy.
I'm growing up, that's for sure.
College. Quad Leading. Life.
Here we go.
Aunica

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