Fearless Surrender: The art of being soft

Be soft.
This year, I have some goals. Be kind, be intentional, be sincere, be soft.
I'm learning, slowly, and growing. These goals aren't things I'm straining to do, but things I ask God to help me with. Abba, show me how I can be kind today. Show me ways I can be more intentional. Help me to be sincere in my interactions. Help me to be soft and understanding, instead of hard and defensive.
I'm learning to be still. I'm learning to listen. I'm learning to love others regardless of conditions.
I'm learning to be soft.
I'm learning to trust my Abba. I'm learning, more like always learning, that His timing is right -and patience is key.
I'm learning to breathe. I'm learning to take life day by day. I'm learning that stress doesn't have to be a thing. Sure, I still get overwhelmed from time to time (18 credits will do that for ya), but overall I'm learning to find joy in the little things. Instead of grumbling about all the homework I have to do, I'm asking God to show me himself in my classes.

Most of all, I'm learning that it's not life and Jesus, it's life WITH Jesus. I'm learning to life a life in communion with my Savior. Day by day. Moment by moment. To be in constant conversation. Asking Him what He thinks, asking for guidance, praying for patience and understanding.

I'm learning to be grateful for the little things - to recognize the small ways Yahweh is revealing Himself to me day by day. I'm learning to be alone. As an extrovert, it's a struggle - but I'm learning to cherish my moments of solitude.

I'm learning to understand people. To care about people. To invest in people.
Nothing brings me greater joy than to see others blooming. I love getting to hear people talk about their passions and dreams. It's still crazy to me how different everyone can be.

I'm learning humility. I'm learning to listen to others' thoughts on things and accept them as valid. I'm learning to ask God what He thinks instead of assuming I'm right. This year, my theology has gotten torn up - I'm still relearning what I believe and hold to be true. It's been humbling. I used to find identity in my understanding of theology. I used to think I had it all figured out. But, the more I get to know God, the more I understand His holiness and His glory, the more I realize I'll never fully comprehend even a breath of who He is. I'm learning to be okay with not knowing. I'm learning to be okay with learning alongside of others instead of being a step ahead. I'm learning that there are things I might never understand.

I'm learning to not complain. This one is the lesson I trip up on most. It's easy for me to get overwhelmed by 7:50 classes and 18 credits and snow storms. I'm learning that others' hardships don't minimize my own. Just because someone else has a hard semester too doesn't mean mine is any less valid. But, I'm learning to find joy in it. I'll graduate before I know it.D

I'm learning to ask God big things. Abba, show me how YOU see your children. Abba, show me where I'm choosing things over you. Abba, help me be more like you.

Love. Joy. Peace. Patience. Kindness. Gentleness. Self-control. Goodness.
Yahweh, make me like You.

Fearless Surrender

The art of being soft

Aunica

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